Six years ago I traveled to the Bay area to meet with Dr. Damon Miller, undergo detox and get started on his Better Eye Health home treatment program. I knew from my initial phone consultation with him that his treatment approach emphasized both physical and emotional health. But I was still surprised when he asked me to tell him about my childhood.
I was even more surprised—and embarrassed—when I immediately began sobbing. I’d spent most of my childhood trying to escape the extreme religion and poverty at home by begging my freewheeling, vagabond dad to take me on the road with him to work as a tool hustler. I finally got my wish at the age of thirteen, when my mom remarried a man who used his religious powers as a weapon to oppress and abuse our family. I began spending my summers hustling tools throughout the Midwest and living out of cheap motels and rest areas with my dad. He became my lifeline and escape. But the summer after I turned sixteen, he was violently arrested while I was with him. A highway patrolman shoved a gun against his head and waved it within a foot of mine. Then he dragged my dad out of the car and took the one person I counted on away from me.
The trauma from my childhood was so great that I cried every time I talked about it. So mostly, I just kept the hurt tucked deep inside. But that day in Dr. Miller’s office, everything changed. Dr. Miller pointed out two very powerful things to me. First, he noted that I was still carrying around a huge negative energy charge inside of me from events that had happened to me as a teenager—which meant that I was still giving away my power. This bothered me. But it was nothing compared to his next words. He said, “If you think this isn’t affecting your physical health, you’re crazy.”
The idea that carrying so much anguish inside of me could cause me to go blind was a huge wake-up call for me. I decided to do whatever it took to get it out and was able to release the trauma by writing my story (now published in my memoir, Hippie Boy), and sharing it with others through radio interviews and podcasts.
Since that time, I’ve done research into epic genetics and the environmental factors such as emotional trauma and stress that can activate a faulty gene and trigger degenerative diseases. I’m convinced there is a correlation between my childhood and my RP. And it makes me wonder if the same holds true for some of you.
During my most recent treatment with Dr. Rosenfarb, he mentioned that he is discovering a similar correlation with many of the RP patients he treats. It seems that many of us have experienced extreme abandonment or trauma.
One of the most important things this healing quest has taught me is that emotional health is key to treatment success. And I’ve discovered through my own journey and the writing program I’ve helped develop for at-risk teens that the only way to release emotional trauma is to get it out—either through writing or sharing it with someone.
So if what I’m saying resonates with any of you and you need a listening ear, I’m here. I’m also going to continue this discussion in the Facebook Group Determined to See and will be asking Dr. Miller and Dr. Rosenfarb to share their thoughts on this.
Here’s to getting healthy emotionally so we can heal physically.